25. Sleepover…

25. Sleepover…

I am pretty determined to see the best in people. I think that I can get a good gauge of people on first impression and usually have an accurate radar when things don’t feel right. Until After. It’s difficult to rely on your gut instinct when you’ve got it so wrong. As mentioned before, I made […]

24. They are not caterpillars…

24. They are not caterpillars…

I was starting to feel like the walls were closing in on me. We were about six months After and our structured life was becoming less so. Rather than dancing and basketball, we were now attending counselling appointments. I forgot how to sleep. It’s hard to sleep after hearing some of the things that the girls told […]

23. Boom…our private hell just went public!

23. Boom…our private hell just went public!

The relief that accompanied telling Lucy was almost overwhelming. It felt like I could breathe a little easier, knowing that her kids were now safe. But as a result, our private story became very public. Susie, was angry that I had been put in the position that I was. She felt that the body who […]

22. The Dark Cloud Overhead Part 2…

22. The Dark Cloud Overhead Part 2…

It was five months After and one of my dear friends, Kirsten, insisted on taking me out for a night on the town. This consisted of us getting dressed nicely and going to a place that served beautiful food and yummy cocktails. We sat and tried to talk about normal stuff, both knowing that my life at […]

21. Awkward…

21. Awkward…

Having grown up in a small town we found that there were times, in the first few years in our new home town, that we could get around with relative anonymity. However, as you get involved in work, sports, children’s activities etc, you begin to meet people and then all of a sudden you have […]

20. Ignoramous…

20. Ignoramous…

I remember so clearly being part of the Christmas Carols in the Park in my home town as a child. I got to sing, with my school mates, Six White Boomers, in front of the whole town, and I loved myself sick. I’ve always loved that song and would sing it with my own children when Christmas […]

19. Holding Pattern 2…

19. Holding Pattern 2…

For those of you who, like us, have never been to court. There are a few things that you need to know. The first is that you need to begin living by the principle, “Hurry up and…wait”! One thing you should know about my husband, is that he is that he likes to be organised. […]

18. Legal Studies…

18. Legal Studies…

Liz and I had a talk about the toll that telling Mel and Grant took on me. From that conversation, I told her that I didn’t feel that I could do it again and there was still another mum, Lucy, that I hadn’t yet confided in, but who I was extremely concerned about. This prompted […]

17: One Hour to Fall Apart

17: One Hour to Fall Apart

The next day, I took the girls to their now-weekly counselling appointment at SAS. As always, we reported to the front desk and got the look of sympathy from the receptionist’s there. Please don’t get me wrong, these women were always professional and kind, but at times, it was too much. And this was one […]